I don't have sufficient words to express the pain and hurt I am feeling right now. I feel abandoned, betrayed, cast aside, unwanted, and unlovable.
I know that God weeps when His children suffer. Enoch saw the Lord's pain at His children's sorrow: "And it came to pass that the God of heaven looked upon the residue of the people, and he wept" (Moses 7:28). Christ also wept at the tomb of His friend Lazarus, because of the love He had for him (John 11:35).
I don't have all the answers. I don't understand the reasons why the Lord calls us to experience great pain. With Nephi, "I know that [God] loveth his children; nevertheless, I do not know the meaning of all things" (1 Nephi 11:17). I know that my Heavenly Parents long to embrace me, to enfold me in Their perfect love. I know that They have perfect understanding and perfect empathy, that They weep with me in my sorrow. And I love Them for it. I know that Their Son was willing to experience my pain so that He could succor me according to my infirmities (Alma 7:12). And I love Him for it. I know that God loves me, but I do not know the meaning of all things.